Who am i ?

who am i ? it's the question you may not ask usually but in my case and in the case of all other gays we have to ask that question once at least , but getting the answer or not it's not the way to be happy , because hapiness comes when you learn to survive . in my case am a 19 years old boy Simple and with an eastern shape , gay and never wanted to be but that's who i am and i just enjoy my self alone and wont ask for more. some times i could feel like living to be a cock servent even if am vergin but sometimes i could feel like a brother or even a lover TOP ... so for the moment am just a 19 years old boy looking around hoping for a better situation . excuse my english am just trying to get a message to the reader and i don't care what could you think of me .

My Hugz