Being GAY...

Ok I want to be who I am but something inside of me says no don't do that its not you and you'll have hell from all sorts of people. So advice is needed k. Cause I came out to mom who is a old style southern belle and she could not figure out how we had sex until she let out a big "OH I gotcha now" lol so any advice would be great its so lonely in this closet. Thing is there are to my knowledge no other Gay men around and I have asked my lesbian buddies to. So advice is Needed please anyways take care Love Gerri