Trying to survive a devastating divorce.

Was married to my wife for 12 yrs. But for no reason at all she wanted a divorce. I wish she would just be straight with me and tell me that she found somebody new. But she likes to play the saint card. Amazingly she is no saint. My ex wife use to strip in new york when she was going to law school.she even hooked a few times. But that didnt bother me bec I love her. We use to live this amazing life in thailand and in bali. But ever since we moved here becshe works for texas A & M corpus christi as a english teacher for foreign students. We kinda grew apart. I think shes sleeping around wiyh some of her froends and studens but what can I do. Am just hoping I can get through this feeling asap. So I can move on. One thing about Alison is that sheis amazing in bed. Well she worked in the sex industry so she knows how to use her body. And an amzing tight pussy. But a horrible heart for compassion and honesty.