The story (so far) of the journey between myself a

At the time in my life that I realized that I am someone that needs to be sexually, mentally,and spiritually dominate over someone I have searched for one that I would call a "true" submissive. What I mostly found are females that call themselves sub but really just want to be tied to a bed and fucked. Which is all fun for a time...but it's only fun for a while. Then it just becomes the same old normal thing, because those people just don't want that lifestyle all the time. I had tried the chat rooms, and the online groups,and the BDSM dating sites. What I found were subs who were interested after reading a bdsm romance novel,but were'nt really commited to the level I sought.

What I looked for was someone who was willing to commit themselves to a 24/7 relationship between a Dom and a Sub. What does all that mean? It means a female who would look to me for protection, comfort, love, tenderness,and when needed...discipline. What they would give is total control of herself to me. Read that again. TOTAL control of herself to me. I was at the point where I was pretty much ready to quit looking. Talked to a few people who would have been good subs,but they lived in other parts of the country,and were not willing to relocate. Which I do understand, but if you're not willing to make that commitment then how can I ever expect you to be a trustworthy sub?

So I got a view on my profile from a sub who lived in the same state as myself. So i read her profile (which I had before but paid closer attention this time)...she seemed like she would be commited,and loyal so I shot her a message that said I'd like to discuss our similar interests and see if we have enough in common. Her profile photo's showed she was not a phoney...she was hardcore. I thought maybe to hardcore for me since most of my experiences have been with people who were not completly commited. She messaged me back and said she'd like to,and we exchanged Yahoo chat names and contacted each other. It seemed from the word go that we clicked...we had that connection. We both were seeking the same thing. A commited 24/7 lifestyle of a Sub giving herself to a Dom, and a Dom excepting this gift.

We had only chatted for a few days between online chatting and text messages. when we decided we should meet. I gave her the first test. If she was serious and real she would have to come to me. I'll be honest I was nervous. For two reasons. One we seemed to have this connection, we didn't disagree on anything. And two because I still had this burning feeling she was full of shit. That she would say this is what I want but would then become very wishy washy about it when the time came. I let her know from the get go this meeting would not be about sex or domination. This was to decide if we has enough in common and wanted the same things to where we can move forward with this situation.

We met at a dinner near where I lived. We greated each other with a hug. When I am nervous I become quiet. When she becomes nervous she keeps talking, and talking, and talking..etc. So even when I had something to add to the conversation it was difficult to get a word in. But I actually found this to be a good thing since we werent just staring at the ground not knowing what to say next. So whenever she would have to stop to breath I would turn our conversation back to what we were both feeling,and where we felt things would go. We decided that night that we were both willing to take things to that next level of being a Dom/Sub Couple. As we left the resturant I kissed her hard on the mouth as I gave her a hard pull of hair. As I pulled away from the kiss I heard her moan as if she had just orgasmed but was trying to hide it. I looked at her sitting in her vehicle as I pulled away and she seemed dazed by what had just happened. We continued to text on a constant basis,and decided she would come to my place the following saturday.

As Saturday approached I did question how fast things were moving. I also questioned myself as a Dom. The fact is she is a total pain slut...could I be as much of a masochist as she needed me to be satisfied? Many people think that this lifestyle is simply about the dom's plessure...which is stupid because no sub would want this lifestyle if they were getting nothing out of it. At some later point I will get into the psychology of a dom/sub relationship but for now I'll stay on the subject at hand. Also the last relationship I was in was with someone in the Vanilla world...So I knew that I would have to reteach myself to allow her to be a true sub. She wants to get me coffee...she wants to go the extra mile to reach her submissive nature. Just like I have to go the extra mile to reach my natural dominate nature in order to please her in a way that she needed to be pleased by serving me. I meditated often that week to find my inner strength to follow this path of total dominance. Dominance comes natural, but each sub is different...some want to be pushed to their limits...others want to be pushed overe their limits. So that is what I meditated on. I needed to get in touch with my dominate nature to make sure I didn't go over any limits or not fullfill her submissive nature. Saturday had arrived and she was here....To Be Continued in part 2