Mellissa's femdom journey

At the very first I dressed because I enjoyed it. And this has never changed for me. I still enjoy the look and the sexy feeling that ladies garments impart During those early years I was looking at a lot of other CD/TV photos and I started thinking that I looked as sexy as most , and sexier than the rest. So I started posting pictures and videos online. For the last 6 months I believe that Two Spirit the best way to describe myself. I find that my first thoughts and opinions on just about anything and everything are being looked at from a woman's point of view first and then from my male side. Slowly but surely my outlook on life in general is starting to be dominated by Mellissa and slowly but surely that after 60 years of Mike's dictatorship Mellissa has finally reemerged and is not willing or content to be in the passenger seat any longer. Mellissa has been with me as long as I can remember, but bending to the pressures exerted by societal, religious, family and peers, Mike figuratively locked Mellissa in a corner of his mind and refused to believe that she ever existed hoping to forget all about what must have been a huge mistake and thinking he'd finally fit in and be accepted as one of the 'straight and normal mass' which used to control the way society looked with a jaundiced eye at sex and sexuality and the roles that men and women were supposed to rigidly adhere to and woe unto those who refused to accept and adhere. I can tell you it's very hard growing up to always seem like you're on the outside looking in and doing everything possible to fit your square box into 'normalities' round hole. I speak from very painful personal experience. It's hard to do your best to be what others expect you to be knowing in your heart of hearts you ARE different from the rest and no matter what or how much you try to fit in the round hole the 'majority' will never accept you as one of them or accept you as the real you. So my battle continues and I have no idea where it's going to take me and what the end result will be. I'd like to thank many people here and those at my two other accounts for their love, support, encouragement and guidance. It's really nice to have an understanding shoulder to cry on and people who are willing to stand behind you and help you fight the battle against ignorance, stupidity, social stigma, violence, misogyny and just plain old hate and fear those tiny minds generate to save society from those who are dangerously different. Again I thank one and all and hope we will continue to try to make understanding and acceptance the new 'normality'