Why

My husband Brian is seriously ill and we have been talking about our life, our love, our past and the future.
Why has he loved seeing me with other men, loving, fucking, why. For 30 years we have been open with our love, why do young men want to make love to an older lady, starting to spread at the hips and tummy, boobs starting to droop, pussy starting to loosen. It's such a turn on that young men still find me sexy and desire me and I enjoy their love making, erect cocks, guys that canfuck repeatedly, continually without ejaculating until I am spent and begging for completion, for that last orgasm. He wants me to carry on fucking when he's gone and I will, the feeling of fullness, of power over a hard cock, those orgasms and endless joy full releases.
I want to feel safe in my future love life, orgasmic, fullfilled loved. Yes loved.