My virginity (part 1)
I was 41 years old when I lost my virginity. At the time I was married with 3 k**s but knew that I was missing something sexually. My wife and I were happy and loved our lives but I found my eyes wandering. I would go online and to the gay and shemale videos to find relief. it started out as curiosity but I noticed how hard I got instantly when I looked at another dick. my emotions were at first confused but I knew I had to do something. This was not my first time looking into gay porn. I had always been curious and even masturbated by sticking various objects in my ass over the years. I was curious but never acted on it. Never really had the opportunity and I never acted upon it.
I also instinctually knew that I wanted to be a bottom. I wanted to feel what it was like to have a man inside me and to feel his lust and release inside me. I stumbled around and found an app. I created a profile and within a few minutes I was scrolling through profiles. I was just excited to get a few hits and messages. Being the newbie I was really unsure how to act. Then I met Benji. Benji had a profile I was immediately drawn to. he was over 6 foot and skinny. I found that body type extremely attractive but his hair was the cherry on top. wavy surfer hair with a great face. not too young. I really liked the slight weathered lines on his face.
I responded to his message with eagerness and when we struck up a conversation I was almost dizzy. He suggested coffee in the afternoon the next day near an outdoor mall. I lived far enough away that made me comfortable. I was my own boss and could clear my schedule. When I went into work I cleared my schedule and barely could concentrate on any work. my secretary asked me if was ok a couple of times.
I arrived way too early and sat in my car for 20 minutes. when I exited my car I purposely walked slowly to the door and casually glanced around. I chose a casual look, jeans with a shirt a loose tie and casual sneakers. After a few seconds I saw Benji and my heart skipped. He smiled and I waived. I forgot all about the slow walk and bumped into a chair on my way over to him. After apologizing to the lady I walked over to Benji embarrassed at my clumsiness. Benji laughed and said nice entrance. that lightened my mood and I laughed with him. he gave me a hug and and when I reciprocated all my nervousness and stress went away. I knew right then that I wanted Benji to be my first.
We walked over to the counter and ordered. Our conversation was free and easy. it is like we knew each other for a long time. After getting our order he put his hand on my shoulder and directed me to the table where we got to know each other. I had taken off my wedding ring before coming but I was honest. I told him about my wife, family and unhappiness. he asked about whether this was a curiosity move and I thought for a moment before answering. I told him the truth that at this point it is too new for me and I could not answer that yet. He smiled and said that was good enough for him. there was a pause and he said look, I am not interested in a relationship. I just want to fuck. if it works out we can be friends with benefits if it does not then we shall move on, deal and he extended his hand for a shake. I smiled and said deal and shook his hand. Beni said great if you are ready let's go. I smiled and said really, now? Benji said no time like the present and with that he stood up pulled my chair back and I stood up. he said I do not l live far from here I will drive.
Things were getting real and I had butterflies like never before. He made light chatter during the 10 minute drive but I could not concentrate on any of it. We got out of the car and walked up the stairs to his condo. When Benji opened the door I saw an immaculately clean condo that had a view of a lake and the city in the background. He sat me on the couch and offered me a beer or wine. I opted for the beer. he came back with beers for both of us. I gulped a sip and spilled some. He laughed and put his hand on my shirt to help clean up. He laughed and said let's skip the intro I think we both know why we are here and leaned in and kissed me. His lips were smooth and inviting. Different than my wife as I could feel the roughness of his beard. He leaned me back on the couch, climbed on top of me and slowly lowered his face to mine. When we kissed I put my arms around him and drew him even closer. We were passionate and I knew that I wanted more. he was patient and loving. Benji began to unbutton my shirt and kiss my skin. He pulled my shirt to the side and kissed my chest and belly. when he got to my Jeans he smiled and said are you ready? I nodded yes. I loved that he was in control. it was like he knew what I wanted. He stepped aside and pulled my jeans off. He got his hands around my boxers and I lifted my ass to let him take it off. There suddenly i was, naked and vulnerable, feeling scared, insecure but ready for whatever was about to happen. He looked me up and down with his eyes and smiled. He stood up and began to undress himself. I was never more excited in my life than I was now watching this gorgeous man take his clothes off for me. His shirt came over his wavy hair and showed his smooth chest. When he removed his pants and boxers and stood naked like and adonis i got hard as a rock. I could not help but stare at his cock and his beautiful body. He slowly lowered himself on top of me and whispered in my ear. I am going to fuck you now. this is your last chance to say no. I smiled, put my hand behind his neck and drew him into me and kissed him.
I also instinctually knew that I wanted to be a bottom. I wanted to feel what it was like to have a man inside me and to feel his lust and release inside me. I stumbled around and found an app. I created a profile and within a few minutes I was scrolling through profiles. I was just excited to get a few hits and messages. Being the newbie I was really unsure how to act. Then I met Benji. Benji had a profile I was immediately drawn to. he was over 6 foot and skinny. I found that body type extremely attractive but his hair was the cherry on top. wavy surfer hair with a great face. not too young. I really liked the slight weathered lines on his face.
I responded to his message with eagerness and when we struck up a conversation I was almost dizzy. He suggested coffee in the afternoon the next day near an outdoor mall. I lived far enough away that made me comfortable. I was my own boss and could clear my schedule. When I went into work I cleared my schedule and barely could concentrate on any work. my secretary asked me if was ok a couple of times.
I arrived way too early and sat in my car for 20 minutes. when I exited my car I purposely walked slowly to the door and casually glanced around. I chose a casual look, jeans with a shirt a loose tie and casual sneakers. After a few seconds I saw Benji and my heart skipped. He smiled and I waived. I forgot all about the slow walk and bumped into a chair on my way over to him. After apologizing to the lady I walked over to Benji embarrassed at my clumsiness. Benji laughed and said nice entrance. that lightened my mood and I laughed with him. he gave me a hug and and when I reciprocated all my nervousness and stress went away. I knew right then that I wanted Benji to be my first.
We walked over to the counter and ordered. Our conversation was free and easy. it is like we knew each other for a long time. After getting our order he put his hand on my shoulder and directed me to the table where we got to know each other. I had taken off my wedding ring before coming but I was honest. I told him about my wife, family and unhappiness. he asked about whether this was a curiosity move and I thought for a moment before answering. I told him the truth that at this point it is too new for me and I could not answer that yet. He smiled and said that was good enough for him. there was a pause and he said look, I am not interested in a relationship. I just want to fuck. if it works out we can be friends with benefits if it does not then we shall move on, deal and he extended his hand for a shake. I smiled and said deal and shook his hand. Beni said great if you are ready let's go. I smiled and said really, now? Benji said no time like the present and with that he stood up pulled my chair back and I stood up. he said I do not l live far from here I will drive.
Things were getting real and I had butterflies like never before. He made light chatter during the 10 minute drive but I could not concentrate on any of it. We got out of the car and walked up the stairs to his condo. When Benji opened the door I saw an immaculately clean condo that had a view of a lake and the city in the background. He sat me on the couch and offered me a beer or wine. I opted for the beer. he came back with beers for both of us. I gulped a sip and spilled some. He laughed and put his hand on my shirt to help clean up. He laughed and said let's skip the intro I think we both know why we are here and leaned in and kissed me. His lips were smooth and inviting. Different than my wife as I could feel the roughness of his beard. He leaned me back on the couch, climbed on top of me and slowly lowered his face to mine. When we kissed I put my arms around him and drew him even closer. We were passionate and I knew that I wanted more. he was patient and loving. Benji began to unbutton my shirt and kiss my skin. He pulled my shirt to the side and kissed my chest and belly. when he got to my Jeans he smiled and said are you ready? I nodded yes. I loved that he was in control. it was like he knew what I wanted. He stepped aside and pulled my jeans off. He got his hands around my boxers and I lifted my ass to let him take it off. There suddenly i was, naked and vulnerable, feeling scared, insecure but ready for whatever was about to happen. He looked me up and down with his eyes and smiled. He stood up and began to undress himself. I was never more excited in my life than I was now watching this gorgeous man take his clothes off for me. His shirt came over his wavy hair and showed his smooth chest. When he removed his pants and boxers and stood naked like and adonis i got hard as a rock. I could not help but stare at his cock and his beautiful body. He slowly lowered himself on top of me and whispered in my ear. I am going to fuck you now. this is your last chance to say no. I smiled, put my hand behind his neck and drew him into me and kissed him.
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