Some failure, realization, and a little change
First, the change. About a week after my last post my little dicklet went through a bit of a change. I thought I had recovered from the year of chastity and no stroking but I was wrong. Suddenly my little dicklet started getting much much harder when I got aroused and it did so more quickly. It's as if it had come to life again in a way I had forgotten all about. I had been wearing chastity for the better part of three years and I suppose that had more of an effect than I thought. It was amazing feeling how hard it was. It was like it was about to burst!
Now for the failure. I started this year with the goal of going back to "normal." By that I mean no orgasm denial, no ruined orgasms, no chastity, no vibrators, and no nipple play. Just jerking my dicklet to full orgasm whenever I got horny. About a week ago I started playing with my nipples and couldn't stop. I started by pinching and rolling them between my fingers. Went on to teasing them by circling them and stimulating my areolas. They are larger than most men's so it's easy to stimulate them. Before I knew it I had started playing with the nipples like crazy! Feeling the sharpness of my nails as I lightly ran them over those little mounds of nerves was amazing and quickly lead to me flicking them like mad! It had been months since I and did this an it was heaven. Finally I licked my fingers a little, put the tips on top of the nipples, and began the oh so delicious motions of small circles that usually gives me a nipple orgasm. My toes clinched, my body shivered, my little dicklet twitched like crazy and oozed a river of precum until I came!
It felt amazing in the moment but when my head cleared and I calmed down I was disappointed in myself. I had failed my resolution. I haven't fully gone back to my old ways even though I desperately want to. I miss my cage and nipple vibrators so much that I have to fight the urge. All this made me realize that there is no going back to "normal" for me. If it was ever an option at all. I do get pleasure from stroking my dicklet but not nearly as much as what the other things give me.
Now for the failure. I started this year with the goal of going back to "normal." By that I mean no orgasm denial, no ruined orgasms, no chastity, no vibrators, and no nipple play. Just jerking my dicklet to full orgasm whenever I got horny. About a week ago I started playing with my nipples and couldn't stop. I started by pinching and rolling them between my fingers. Went on to teasing them by circling them and stimulating my areolas. They are larger than most men's so it's easy to stimulate them. Before I knew it I had started playing with the nipples like crazy! Feeling the sharpness of my nails as I lightly ran them over those little mounds of nerves was amazing and quickly lead to me flicking them like mad! It had been months since I and did this an it was heaven. Finally I licked my fingers a little, put the tips on top of the nipples, and began the oh so delicious motions of small circles that usually gives me a nipple orgasm. My toes clinched, my body shivered, my little dicklet twitched like crazy and oozed a river of precum until I came!
It felt amazing in the moment but when my head cleared and I calmed down I was disappointed in myself. I had failed my resolution. I haven't fully gone back to my old ways even though I desperately want to. I miss my cage and nipple vibrators so much that I have to fight the urge. All this made me realize that there is no going back to "normal" for me. If it was ever an option at all. I do get pleasure from stroking my dicklet but not nearly as much as what the other things give me.
1 year ago
