Changes from last year and difficulties.

I think last year may have completely changed me. I am still wanting to goon instead of cum but only with femdom files. If it's interracial or BNWO I feel the urgency to cum much, much more. With femdom I will go multiple videos without feeling that tingling to cum but with BNWO that feeling happens so much sooner. It's amazing to think that shortly before my experiment last year BNWO and interracial videos were new to me and now they are about the only types of videos that make me want to get off! I suspected this might happen but I never thought it would be this strong. Now, no matter what porn I start out stroking to I always finish to BBC. I don't know if I would call last year a mistake because it's not like I dislike the videos. It's just startling how much of a change that year made in me.

I'm still not back to normal masturbation though. While I am enjoying stroking my dicklet again, my nipples still command attention. So much so that I've had to force myself to stop playing with them to focus on stroking. I also really miss my chastity cage. I miss that wonderful feeling of pent up frustration, the bite of the bars when I'm horny, and the comfort having my joy encased in metal. I almost gave up on this years resolution and put it back on a few days ago.