Lost

This is hard to write on any given day I have my own mental health to worry about I have been in a dark place for so many year its rough to say if I now what life is supposed to be. I have walked alone in the darkness of my mind for years hiding from the rest of the world. I need to share my thoughts with out seeming crazy or insane. When I feel the erg to lash out its always on myself. I'm tired of that I need an out let someone that will let me do what I want with out me holding back and with out a word and understand that it's ? ok. To let me be me and them be by my side in this crazy world we call life.