I pee in the shower ;)

So yea i know it's not really unusual to do that and ive been doing it since i was a k** haha. But ive been doing this weird (to some people even disgusting i bet but idc haha) thing where if i lie down to take a bath and need to pee i just pee into the water and stay there for however long i feel like. Last night i literally peed twice while in there a i didn't get up or anything i just found it arousing. Pissing is my fetish yes but during sex or masturbation not while doing basic things. When it's during sex with someone i make my pee as clean as possible but these few times i didn't care about the color or anything i just sat in it like nothing happened. How do you feel about it? Do you find it disgusting or hot?