Let down and eye opening experience

Let down: Had to abandon No Nut November. It was causing too much stress given what I've got going on right now. It's disappointing but that's life. It likes to get in the way of what we want.

The eye opening experience was thanks to someone on this site. It wasn't a pleasant one but it was educational and needed given the outcome. Started a back and forth with a Mistress about a month ago. I won't give her name or details about her that she told because what was said was done so privately. She contacted me wanting me to fill a role that she said she couldn't have others do. Since having such interactions was one of the main reasons I joined this site I eagerly agreed. I was upfront with my limitations and thought all would be ok. I was shy starting out and she was understanding of that at first. Then she wasn't. Then she was again. Things got ugly at the end just as I was giving her what she said she wanted. What threw things for a loop was something she told me about herself. It hit me hard. I tried to ask more questions to see if things could continue and it didn't go well. In fact it ended with her saying she had already answered my questions and that I must have the mind of a retard if I couldn't understand that. That I couldn't be any more handicapped. While it ended badly I'm glad I had the experience. It showed me how horrible some can be in this community. It's something to keep in mind if I ever get to explore a relationship with someone from this community in real life.

Live and learn.