Bells Toll for Free Will
I have watched it happen. While busily trying not to crossdress, I turned into a transvestite. Then, with full awareness of the risks, I hungrily devoured porn and hypnosis videos, until, pathetically, I get aroused by videos that humiliate me for my faggot porn addiction.
There was never a plan, except perhaps for the opposite events. I tried to be focused, well-adjusted and heterosexual. I tried to wear pants. I tried to read a good novel.
There's no more a rational explanation for my behaviour than when some poor deluded soul axe murders her parents. Why couldn't she stop herself? What made her do it?! We're aghast.
Who's in charge here? I feel stirrings inside, and I buy lingerie. I feel a weird twitch in my brain, and within moments I'm deep, deeper, no Really DEEP in trance, listening, obeying, absorbing, changing. My foremost thought might be, "It's really not a good time to dress like a slut," but my hands are soon fastening garter straps, feet deliciously slipping into heels. Whoever "I" am, has been relegated to spectator status.
I will dress as a sissy. I will obey. I will go deeper.
There was never a plan, except perhaps for the opposite events. I tried to be focused, well-adjusted and heterosexual. I tried to wear pants. I tried to read a good novel.
There's no more a rational explanation for my behaviour than when some poor deluded soul axe murders her parents. Why couldn't she stop herself? What made her do it?! We're aghast.
Who's in charge here? I feel stirrings inside, and I buy lingerie. I feel a weird twitch in my brain, and within moments I'm deep, deeper, no Really DEEP in trance, listening, obeying, absorbing, changing. My foremost thought might be, "It's really not a good time to dress like a slut," but my hands are soon fastening garter straps, feet deliciously slipping into heels. Whoever "I" am, has been relegated to spectator status.
I will dress as a sissy. I will obey. I will go deeper.
2 years ago
