Still in heat
a note to a guy too far away...
I dont consider myself a cheater but I know I am a hypocrite too. Sometimes, and I think that time is now, i get driven by some force inside of me and I need something different and new. Something to stir me up for a while. I know I will be finding a cock to suck in the next day or two. I was straight until my 40s. Then the divorce, then 2008 and my financial life crashed and burned. I started whoring around hard. I was using women like a dog. jerking off for days at a time. I was totally obsessed with my physical pleasure at the expense of everything. It went on for a year at the peak of it. It took a couple of years to get to that year where I crossed the line and started looking to guys for pleasure. I have always loved making women cum. It is a control thing. I have always been pretty intuitive about what gets them excited. Most women I have been with have told me it is not common that guys can do that. They get mystical ideas about me but it isn't mystical. I like the feeling that they become physically dependent on me for pleasure. Guys don't have that. They don't get dependent that way. They don't get stary eyed and mystical. The just want to cum. I love to make guys cum. I love narrowing the experience down to that 10 or 15 seconds when they wind up, constrict like a shot gun loading and fire. It is way more intense than most women. Then it is over and we s**tter like an army being routed. It ends fast and dirty. It is a d**g for sure... But now, 10 years after that peak year where sex with men was a full time job? 5 years since I have been with a guy? I have calmed down a lot. I don't want it so much any more. I love my girl. Living that way was entirely impractical. I don't or haven't had the energy to hunt it down. My relationship is great, work is great, life is great... But I want it now. I want some cock. I want to swallow some cum straight from the tap of the gun. I want to take it in my throat and hear him moan. I want it shot into me. I want to drain his power and take it inside. The power of man. I would love sucking your cock. A guy like you who isn't getting any touch, yea, you are a fucking unicorn dude. Maybe a nice half hour 69 if you want to suck cock. The one time I was in 69 with some guy I didn't know, we synced up right away. both of us with our hands holding the others ass, letting each other control the timing of the stroke. Neither of us were fucking with our cocks, we were both fucking with our throats. When I told him I was cumming he came. We both pulled in tight and release into each other. Perfect timing... A gift from who knows why or what.
I dont consider myself a cheater but I know I am a hypocrite too. Sometimes, and I think that time is now, i get driven by some force inside of me and I need something different and new. Something to stir me up for a while. I know I will be finding a cock to suck in the next day or two. I was straight until my 40s. Then the divorce, then 2008 and my financial life crashed and burned. I started whoring around hard. I was using women like a dog. jerking off for days at a time. I was totally obsessed with my physical pleasure at the expense of everything. It went on for a year at the peak of it. It took a couple of years to get to that year where I crossed the line and started looking to guys for pleasure. I have always loved making women cum. It is a control thing. I have always been pretty intuitive about what gets them excited. Most women I have been with have told me it is not common that guys can do that. They get mystical ideas about me but it isn't mystical. I like the feeling that they become physically dependent on me for pleasure. Guys don't have that. They don't get dependent that way. They don't get stary eyed and mystical. The just want to cum. I love to make guys cum. I love narrowing the experience down to that 10 or 15 seconds when they wind up, constrict like a shot gun loading and fire. It is way more intense than most women. Then it is over and we s**tter like an army being routed. It ends fast and dirty. It is a d**g for sure... But now, 10 years after that peak year where sex with men was a full time job? 5 years since I have been with a guy? I have calmed down a lot. I don't want it so much any more. I love my girl. Living that way was entirely impractical. I don't or haven't had the energy to hunt it down. My relationship is great, work is great, life is great... But I want it now. I want some cock. I want to swallow some cum straight from the tap of the gun. I want to take it in my throat and hear him moan. I want it shot into me. I want to drain his power and take it inside. The power of man. I would love sucking your cock. A guy like you who isn't getting any touch, yea, you are a fucking unicorn dude. Maybe a nice half hour 69 if you want to suck cock. The one time I was in 69 with some guy I didn't know, we synced up right away. both of us with our hands holding the others ass, letting each other control the timing of the stroke. Neither of us were fucking with our cocks, we were both fucking with our throats. When I told him I was cumming he came. We both pulled in tight and release into each other. Perfect timing... A gift from who knows why or what.
3 years ago
