Off the rezzz

For all practical purpose I am straight. It is only really exciting for me when the guy is in the same predicament. Driven by sexual tension. Doing this thing that large parts of my psyche tells me not to do... and doing it with or to a guy who is suffering the same demon. No talking, just cock... Pure lust. And if i'm being sucked off, the thought of this married guy, who is as rock hard as a teenager touching their first pussy because my hard cock is swelling in their mouth... and that he will go home to his mundane life after having my cock down his throat and my cum in his belly gets the exhilaration of guilt and shame of a lying cheating dirty desperate slut... It is that intensity... the one I felt when I came in my virgin teenage girlfriend, knowing that the momentary pleasure could change everything but not having the ability to stop. There are times, and I can feel it coming on now, where I don't know what I might do if I had a bud to hook up with. I feel like I am in heat. No kissing or hugging... no, I just want dirty a****l cumming.