Fetishes and toes

I know some people have very specific fetishes, things they enjoy from an early age, that they can point to a specific time for when they started to be turned on by whatever it is, even if they might’ve been too young to understand the arousal of it. I have those too, I can point to a specific moment as the reason for why fully-clothed women with bare shoulders excite me, looking back I understand that I’ve always been excited by the idea of getting to watch others. Having sex or masturbating, or showing off somehow, it’s my main fetish, getting to look. Not being involved myself, just watching. That’s a topic for another day, how I enjoy watching.

Because what I wanted to delve into today are the other fetishes I might entertain. I’ve written about both breeding and lactation earlier, both of which I enjoy as fantasies, that I believe mainly happened from watching and enjoying porn. I will watch almost anything if it intrigues me, and sometimes it unlocks new enjoyments in me. I might not want to do it myself, but the fantasies are exciting. Sometimes I think about trying it, and the thought doesn’t seem scary, though often it would be a matter of finding the right partner, someone I feel safe with, want to explore with, who’s open for experimenting, who enjoys it.

That leads me to my newest discovery. I’m beginning to wonder if I might have a foot fetish. At least I’m enjoying the idea of letting someone enjoy my feet, thinking about them sucking my toes and licking my soles, all of that. Not as a degradation kink, which is the rub, I don’t want to demean someone for enjoying feet. And I don’t want someone who just wants to fuck me to feel like they have to dutifully suck my toes for a few minutes, while hoping that it’ll lead to them getting to fuck me.

I have no interest in subjecting someone who does not enjoy the fetish or have a very healthy sense of exploration into doing something to please me, I don’t get off on that. What I get off on is someone who genuinely is turned on by feet enjoying my feet, or someone who is genuinely turned on by doing it as an act of pleasing both me and themselves. Maybe even as the only sex act we perform together, not as a bit of foreplay before we get to the "fun" part. That’s my problem with finding men to fuck, they’ll say they want to do these things with me, but then they still mainly want to fuck me, and will just agree to whatever, in hopes that the fucking will happen. And that’s not it for me, it’s not a means to an end. If we agree that you’ll masturbate while I watch, I want to watch you masturbate, I’m not there to be fucked. If we agree that you’ll suck my toes, we can agree beforehand about the setting, but I’m not getting naked so you can fuck me after a few feeble tongue swipes.

If I say that we can agree on the setting, I mean more like do you want my feet clean or dirty, do you want to clean them, file my nails, make me pretty and then enjoy your prize, or do you want me to come clean and pristine so you can enjoy them straight away. I want you to have an actual foot fetish so we can explore it together, but that means you need to have thought about it beforehand. And if we end up fucking, if we end up naked and tangled up together, that’s an unexpected bonus, not what you wanted all along. I know it’s too much to ask, but it’s still what I want.