Learning to wank
OK, this is about my early masturbation. It's a bit of a long story to tell it right. How it started and so forth. It was maybe my only small incident with a guy as well. I might have been maybe 11 and apparently some of the "in" group at school had begun jacking off because this was the joking in thing to talk about - secretly of course. I was raised in a strictly religious family and went to a private Catholic school. So the joking at school wasn't about who could do it, it was who was ACCUSED of doing it. It was a big put down. No one admitted to it. Not for religious reasons mind you, but because then you were seen as being not able to get a girl. Of course at that age, I doubt any of us had ever had any real sex with a girl.
One day I was with this friend who was joking around saying his dad had "the talk" with him. I said "Oh mine did too, but just the obvious. A man puts his penis in a girl, deposits his seed and he fertilizes the egg and she gets pregnant". That was really about all my dad told me...lol.
Since my friend brought it up, I wanted to know how does the guy fertilize the girl's egg? What seed?? That little detail was left out since I knew nothing about cumming even...lol. This also sort of explains why I had no idea what jacking off really was. I knew it meant playing with yourself, but so what. I figured hell, you can play with your nose, you play with your fingers so what's wrong if you play with your own cock...lol. Now I didn't phrase my question that way of course. What I asked him is something like when you put it in a girl, how do you deposit the seed?
He just sort of laughed and said well just like when you jack off. I said I'd never done that and he said yeah right...lol. But the truth is I hadn't. I kept it up and said so how does jacking off work. He said well you just rub it, giving me an example with his hand in the air. I said, yeah? He could tell I wasn't putting him on and next day over his house he must have been horny himself because he brought it up this time. He asked if I figured it all out yet. I said not yet. He said well how are you doing it? I said doing what? He said trying to jack off. I said well I just rub it like you said. He said doesn't it feel good. I said well not really. He was surprised and said, "What? Show me" I of course said "No way!"
He said, "Oh we're both guys. No one is going to see you. Here let me show you how I do it then you show me." With that he didn't wait for me to object, but pulled his shorts and undies down and took hold of his already somewhat hard cock and began pumping. I just watched in amazement, sort of like you'd watch a train wreck. He only did a few pumps then said OK you do it, leaving his pants down as I recall. Well since he did it, I figured I had to so I dropped mine and took my shriveled little cock and jacked it a couple times with 2 fingers...lol. He snickered and said well you need to get it hard first. I said how? He said try this, and he laid across his bed pants still down and began humping the bed. Again, I was next. When I'd stop he'd ask if I was hard yet and I'd say no.
He said imagine this bed is your girlfriend and you got her naked. You just stuck it in her now pump like this, and he started humping while I mimicked him side by side. Then he jumped up holding himself and said I have to go to the bathroom...lol. OK you and I both know why he ran to the bathroom. That was basically my one sexual contact with another guy if you call it that. I had no idea what was going on at the time, even when he ran off to the bathroom. So let me then explain how I first actually learned to jack off.
There was a girl that lived next door to us that was a year older than me. She wore a bra and needed it already. My room was upstairs and hers was too, directly across from my window. I suppose I knew all along that was her window, but as I got to puberty, I started paying more attention. It wasn't that far between houses and I can remember sitting for hours watching for her light to come on. Sometimes she'd come in there and be fooling around forever without dressing, but just often enough she'd get undressed and I could see!
Just the sight of her light on in there made me hard although I still had no idea what to do about that...lol. I'd be hard sometimes so long that it would hurt. The thing that really got me hooked was one time she stood directly across from my window and undressed in front of her dresser mirror. This meant I got to see the back of her and the front - at least her top front. She did a strip that night to a song she apparently was playing, down to bra and panties. She was testing her moves in the mirror and I was so turned on.
After that, I was hooked and waited night after night for a repeat. I occasionally got one but usually nothing like that first time. Anyway, one night, maybe the same night after the incident with my buddy showing me how to hump, or maybe a night or two later, I saw her light on. I had an instant hardon. I remember I used to casually rub it through my pants more or less unconsciously until that night. It struck me that he said "It has to be hard" I remember thinking when he said that "One of these nights."
Well this was one of those bust nights. Nothing happened at the window. But it got me hard and my own curiosity kept it that way. I wondered if humping might work now that I was hard. I pulled down my pants and felt so naughty. It was another complete turn on. I laid on my bed and adjusted my cock so it was up against my belly and began to slowly rub it more than actually humping. I felt good! Really good! The more I did it the better it felt. Now I had had wet dreams before yet never connected that to anything. Just dreams.
As I rubbed it was growing better and better and my rhythm increased. Suddenly I felt a change. Something familiar yet strange and wonderful. It was just beyond belief the feeling down there. I melted into that wet dream sensation and finally connected them, too late to avoid the "wet" part...lol. I could this time feel it coming out of me. That same sticky gooey stuff I'd found after a wet dream. Yet I didn't care. I wouldn't have cared if it over flowed down to the first floor at the moment!
When I was done, I rolled over still in wonderland. I put it all together. "I just jacked off!" I thought. I can do it. Oh and I would do it too, over and over, again and again. I tried jacking with my hand since I knew what feeling I was after now and I used towels, hankies, dirty undies, rags or anything I could find to catch the mess. I even jacked off into a glass to catch a load to look at it. Not much there I thought, although it was probably the 3rd or 4th shot of the day knowing me...lol. I was finally off and running.
Well that was my start. I guess you can tell, I get into it when I get on the roll writing...lol. So tell me, have you ever done anything naughty? Really naughty? Something you'd like to share. Maybe held it back even from your own thoughts for a while now. I've read a lot of erotica and some of it can even turn you on a bit if well written, but nothing is more of a turn on than the real thing. Even the small stuff is extremely exciting just knowing you're going to let someone enter that secret part of you. Almost like a woman letting you touch her privates, touching the private parts of a person's brain is every bit as exciting to me.
One day I was with this friend who was joking around saying his dad had "the talk" with him. I said "Oh mine did too, but just the obvious. A man puts his penis in a girl, deposits his seed and he fertilizes the egg and she gets pregnant". That was really about all my dad told me...lol.
Since my friend brought it up, I wanted to know how does the guy fertilize the girl's egg? What seed?? That little detail was left out since I knew nothing about cumming even...lol. This also sort of explains why I had no idea what jacking off really was. I knew it meant playing with yourself, but so what. I figured hell, you can play with your nose, you play with your fingers so what's wrong if you play with your own cock...lol. Now I didn't phrase my question that way of course. What I asked him is something like when you put it in a girl, how do you deposit the seed?
He just sort of laughed and said well just like when you jack off. I said I'd never done that and he said yeah right...lol. But the truth is I hadn't. I kept it up and said so how does jacking off work. He said well you just rub it, giving me an example with his hand in the air. I said, yeah? He could tell I wasn't putting him on and next day over his house he must have been horny himself because he brought it up this time. He asked if I figured it all out yet. I said not yet. He said well how are you doing it? I said doing what? He said trying to jack off. I said well I just rub it like you said. He said doesn't it feel good. I said well not really. He was surprised and said, "What? Show me" I of course said "No way!"
He said, "Oh we're both guys. No one is going to see you. Here let me show you how I do it then you show me." With that he didn't wait for me to object, but pulled his shorts and undies down and took hold of his already somewhat hard cock and began pumping. I just watched in amazement, sort of like you'd watch a train wreck. He only did a few pumps then said OK you do it, leaving his pants down as I recall. Well since he did it, I figured I had to so I dropped mine and took my shriveled little cock and jacked it a couple times with 2 fingers...lol. He snickered and said well you need to get it hard first. I said how? He said try this, and he laid across his bed pants still down and began humping the bed. Again, I was next. When I'd stop he'd ask if I was hard yet and I'd say no.
He said imagine this bed is your girlfriend and you got her naked. You just stuck it in her now pump like this, and he started humping while I mimicked him side by side. Then he jumped up holding himself and said I have to go to the bathroom...lol. OK you and I both know why he ran to the bathroom. That was basically my one sexual contact with another guy if you call it that. I had no idea what was going on at the time, even when he ran off to the bathroom. So let me then explain how I first actually learned to jack off.
There was a girl that lived next door to us that was a year older than me. She wore a bra and needed it already. My room was upstairs and hers was too, directly across from my window. I suppose I knew all along that was her window, but as I got to puberty, I started paying more attention. It wasn't that far between houses and I can remember sitting for hours watching for her light to come on. Sometimes she'd come in there and be fooling around forever without dressing, but just often enough she'd get undressed and I could see!
Just the sight of her light on in there made me hard although I still had no idea what to do about that...lol. I'd be hard sometimes so long that it would hurt. The thing that really got me hooked was one time she stood directly across from my window and undressed in front of her dresser mirror. This meant I got to see the back of her and the front - at least her top front. She did a strip that night to a song she apparently was playing, down to bra and panties. She was testing her moves in the mirror and I was so turned on.
After that, I was hooked and waited night after night for a repeat. I occasionally got one but usually nothing like that first time. Anyway, one night, maybe the same night after the incident with my buddy showing me how to hump, or maybe a night or two later, I saw her light on. I had an instant hardon. I remember I used to casually rub it through my pants more or less unconsciously until that night. It struck me that he said "It has to be hard" I remember thinking when he said that "One of these nights."
Well this was one of those bust nights. Nothing happened at the window. But it got me hard and my own curiosity kept it that way. I wondered if humping might work now that I was hard. I pulled down my pants and felt so naughty. It was another complete turn on. I laid on my bed and adjusted my cock so it was up against my belly and began to slowly rub it more than actually humping. I felt good! Really good! The more I did it the better it felt. Now I had had wet dreams before yet never connected that to anything. Just dreams.
As I rubbed it was growing better and better and my rhythm increased. Suddenly I felt a change. Something familiar yet strange and wonderful. It was just beyond belief the feeling down there. I melted into that wet dream sensation and finally connected them, too late to avoid the "wet" part...lol. I could this time feel it coming out of me. That same sticky gooey stuff I'd found after a wet dream. Yet I didn't care. I wouldn't have cared if it over flowed down to the first floor at the moment!
When I was done, I rolled over still in wonderland. I put it all together. "I just jacked off!" I thought. I can do it. Oh and I would do it too, over and over, again and again. I tried jacking with my hand since I knew what feeling I was after now and I used towels, hankies, dirty undies, rags or anything I could find to catch the mess. I even jacked off into a glass to catch a load to look at it. Not much there I thought, although it was probably the 3rd or 4th shot of the day knowing me...lol. I was finally off and running.
Well that was my start. I guess you can tell, I get into it when I get on the roll writing...lol. So tell me, have you ever done anything naughty? Really naughty? Something you'd like to share. Maybe held it back even from your own thoughts for a while now. I've read a lot of erotica and some of it can even turn you on a bit if well written, but nothing is more of a turn on than the real thing. Even the small stuff is extremely exciting just knowing you're going to let someone enter that secret part of you. Almost like a woman letting you touch her privates, touching the private parts of a person's brain is every bit as exciting to me.
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