Professional masturbator

Hi.

I am currently 42 years old. I discovered by accident masturbating when I was 13 years old. Since that time on I daily masturbate more than 1 time per day. There have been days up to 13 cumshots / orgasms that my balls hurt of pain. After 10 years in my early twenties, I noticed that I had smaller balls than guys of my same age. Now 30 years later, I have hardly any balls at all. I feel ashamed to be naked between other guys in the shower after sporting together. Yes, I admit that I am an sex addict. Who has a similar life as me and want to share his/her experience?

Thanks