Sissy slave application
A Master contacted me online saying that he was looking for a sissy slave maid and asking what I could offer in these capacities. What follows is a dialogue between us.
sissy:-
I am an experienced sissy and also an experienced slave. But I am not an experienced sissy slave. I have found it difficult to find a Master who likes to dominate, control and humiliate a sissy. Most sissies look for dominant women. I have no idea how many of those exist though I did once submit to a Mistress in a non-sexual way and served as her maid on a few occasions. The submission I felt was good and I havenāt ruled out serving other women. Although I know all this is rooted in erotic impulses, as a sissy I also know that sexual satisfaction for me is irrelevant. I am here to satisfy and pleasure my Master. I wish I could say I could also do that for a woman but itās not in my nature.
With a man, Iāve no interest in having an orgasm but I want my Master to have great ones however he likes. Even if he is indifferent to using me sexually, Iāll happily serve him and do everything to make his life easier and more pleasant. I did have a relationship like that with a Master in London when I was living there. He used me sexually now and again but for the most part I visited as his sissy maid and cleaned and performed domestic duties for him. I learned that I was there purely for him and I learned to empty my mind of all intentions other than to serve him. He had a set of protocols that I had to adhere to and obey. I can send these to you if you are interested, Sir.
As a sissy I am most in demand as an object for easy sex for men and thatās good that I am of use. But for the most part I find I must present myself as a woman, as convincing as I can be. Sometimes itās lady, sometimes as slut. I see a distinction between cd and sissy. The cd generally wants to be as convincing as possible, hoping to pass as a genetic woman. The sissy however embraces an over the top femininity that no genetic woman would ever embrace. Not just in what the sissy wears - lots of lace and frou-frou and ribbons and bows and little bells - but also in behaviour as the sissy lisps, minces, curtsies etc.
However even if I am trying to pass as a convincing woman, I always see myself as submitting to a real man and being there just for his pleasure.
The submission is always present. I used to know a man whose central excitement came from having a sissy as a Stepford wife - totally compliant and submissive. So if I meet a man who is looking for a cd rather than a sissy, in my mind I become a Stepford wife, there to satisfy him.
My experience as male slave is something I draw on. Iām not into pain but Iāve been beaten many times as punishment for mistakes. As sissy slave, Iād see it being used for mistakes or for displaying hints of masculinity. I also find that as sissy slave my limits seem to expand maybe cause there is a deeper sense of humiliation in being sissified or maybe because it is closer to my essential nature. Iām not effeminate but removing any trace of masculinity and feminising me totally has a powerful effect on me.
MASTER:-
Well spoken...you have piqued My interest. Ok great so, let Me tell how it is going to be in a little more detail.
I am offering complete and permanent ownership inside a pure D/s lifestyle but it is not all plain sailing and honey coated days.
The pure D/s lifestyle is unyielding, strict and can be frustrating if you are not truly 100% dedicated to it every second of every day.
If you are and ready to live this lifestyle it will bring endless bliss and happiness.
Providing service will never be the only goal nor will be giving pleasure. Of course, you must be without any expectation to receive any in return. Being a slave can be hard, harsh and you will be unfulfilled if you are not focused on the core objectives every single day.
Pure D/s is a symbiosis. Be ready to become My symbiont.
Educate yourself to what that means and what will be expected of you.
Pure D/s has many imperatives.
The D/s slave trinity for example prescribes to the slave the conditions of her existence.
It states:
No Rights,
No Choices,
No Control,
...ever.
Seven simple words but with a powerful and permanent ring to it. That will be as they say āthatā...and it will never be any different. I pursue and execute it permanently and so will My slave. There is no room for compromise or shortcuts around the trinity. you need to understand and absorb this. If you canāt see yourself living with it on a permanent basis you must raise your hand now.
Also, you need to be aware of the fact that I donāt allow deviation from the norm or little individualities. They only lead to misunderstanding and misinterpretation when it comes to the trinity.
I am the owner and Master of My slave in every respect, every breath and every second of every day.
But I am also extremely loving, caring, always having the welfare of My property in the forefront of My mind.
The intent is to train and improve her so that My life becomes easier, more comfortable, more pleasurable and happier without that any expectation may exist that those are reciprocal in any way. It is a slaveās duty and vocation to see to this with loving detail and continuity until told to stop or change.
It is always about My pleasure and My comfort and never about hers. She must learn to take pleasure from the knowledge she is providing it rather than receiving any.
As stated, there will be no vanilla life ever. There may be instances where a hybrid must be temporarily used to facilitate the world around us, but when that happens it is not to be mistaken as a compromise.
The role of a sissy slave maid can be summarised in brief and described in three parts.
The sissy - an inferior femme like being who strives to be a girl in everything she does. She will be created through training and feminisation procedures which will include HRT, implants and augmentations. Her purpose is to serve sexually in every which way, whenever, wherever and with whom ever her Owner decides. She is striving to be the best at pleasing and entertaining her owner and men in general.
The slave - is a toy for her owner and void of any rights. she is branded as owned property, marked as a slave, permanently collared, cuffed or chained at her ownerās desire. she is kept and handled as inventory and serves through work as assigned.
The maid - a domestic servant who will work tirelessly every single day to keep her ownerās residence clean and up to prescribed standard in all rooms and areas, indoors and out. She cleans, scrubs, washes, dries, polishes, irons and folds, dusts, mops, wipes, makes & changes beds daily, dishes and much more. She is also trained as an excellent cook and provides delicious multi course meals when instructed to anyone visiting or staying at the residence.
So this is it in a nutshell. There are obviously many more things but this is the lifestyle Iāve been leading for so many years.
you will never need anything and be taken care of in all respects permanently, including health care and in case something should happen to Me.
I am happy to discuss this or any other aspect in more detail if you can accept all of the above?
sissy:-
SIR, this sissy is very impressed with what You have written. It is clear that You have thought long and hard about all of this and it seems You have experienced it too as Master. The BDSM world is full of phonies so it is wonderful to come across someone who is serious about it. This sissyās experiences, as she has told You, have been split between lots of experience as male slave, lots of experience as sissy/cd but limited experience of bringing the two together so what You write is tremendously exciting.
As slave, i know it is not an easy life. I have not lived it full time but i have had a experience of it for longer than an evening or a weekend. And during those times I lived it for say two weeks i did learn that it is not some delightful fantasy. It depended on the Master of course - some were really just āplayersā who wanted role play, bondage, sex. Others were men who wanted to explore it as a lifestyle and there the sense of actually being a slave was much more real and i had to give myself over to it on His terms. i love the Trinity You insist on and i have experienced that definitely even if it has not been articulated like that. The central notion i adhere to is that i am there to serve in any and every sense of the word; that it is only by serving that my life has meaning.
So i have served in leather and rubber, in chains, naked; iāve been totally body shaved and once head shaved. i have lots of bondage equipment for Masters to use on me including a set of triple weight prison irons. i have been caged for extended periods even as sissy - iāll find some pictures of that and send. Being caged is an interesting experience as if it is done for a longish period - iāve had different periods usually up to three days- and under different circumstances such as with or without interaction or with no interaction and left in total darkness - which as slave i had to work through boredom and find a meaning in it. i always emerged from these experiences feeling much more submissive than when i started. And so for me, submission and trying to find the heart of my submission became an imperative call.
Yet it was complicated by my desire to do it as sissy. But i just could not find a Master who wanted to feminize. Yet this became more and more how i felt i should be to such an extent that i stopped my BDSM activities and focused entirely on dressing and presenting as a woman. i found it very easy to meet men and be used by them for sex but the downside was that they were almost always too polite! They would ask what they could do for me to which i replied āNothingā. i would emphasize that all i wanted was to give them pleasure on their terms and that anything they wanted i would provide.
With regard to HRT, implants and augmentations, i admit to having often thought of this but it was always seen by me as a fantasy. i did date a man a few years ago who wanted me to transition to womanhood through surgery in south east Asia but i did not have the courage to do it. And nor do i believe it is who i am. i do identify as sissy rather than as transsexual. iām both excited and afraid of the idea of implants and HRT.
iām conscious of having been a sissy all my life. My mother says she knew i was different from the moment of my birth. As a c***d at school i played with the girls and joined in with their singing and dancing games until bullying by boys started. i tried to man up to fight this but even so i was always āartisticā. i started cross dressing when i was 10 or 11 but suffered from a lot of guilt. So i repressed it for years and then the pattern of buy female clothes, feel guilt, purge began. Until I accepted myself about the age of 35. And since then, there is no guilt. Just increasing frustration at not finding a Master who wants a sissy slave maid. i feel that is what I was born to be.
As sissy, i work on expunging the slightest hint of masculinity in myself, wanting every movement, every inflection in voice, every element of behaviour to be more feminine even than that of a genetic woman without ever suggesting parody. i know i am not camp but feminine. i also have a number of chastity devices which i use to hide away my male genitals so that they are irrelevant. Although biologically male, i have always felt naturally inferior to all real men as i have always known that i am not one.
As slave, i work endlessly on becoming more and more submissive. I know that there is a perfect stillness at the heart of my submission. i am not religious but even so i would compare it to the stripping bare of a monk who peels away layer upon layer of the outer world so that he can achieve ācommunionā with his notion of God.
As maid, i can say with confidence that i am on home ground. i can perform all domestic chores without difficulty and i am reputed to be an accomplished cook. i do all my own domestic work and because being a maid is so central to me i do it always as well as i can.
Symbiont- such a great word to be applied to an inferior who searches for union with a Master on his terms.
SIR, in conclusion, i felt a great jump in moving from Your blog to what You wrote so eloquently about in Your long message to me. i am aware of a controlling intelligence in what You write and imagine You are plagued by messages from sissies so i really appreciate You writing to me. i only wonder that You are not already suited, especially as You write that You have lived this lifestyle for years.
SIR, i do not know what You look like, Your age, where You live but i sense Your genuineness coming through strongly in a world of fantasy. It may be that i fail to meet Your requirements and that You look for a sissy younger and prettier than i - thatās perfectly understandable - but i am truly grateful You have led me to reflect on who i really am. 6am now here! Long hours being unable to sleep but totally worth it. Thank You, SIR.
sissy:-
I am an experienced sissy and also an experienced slave. But I am not an experienced sissy slave. I have found it difficult to find a Master who likes to dominate, control and humiliate a sissy. Most sissies look for dominant women. I have no idea how many of those exist though I did once submit to a Mistress in a non-sexual way and served as her maid on a few occasions. The submission I felt was good and I havenāt ruled out serving other women. Although I know all this is rooted in erotic impulses, as a sissy I also know that sexual satisfaction for me is irrelevant. I am here to satisfy and pleasure my Master. I wish I could say I could also do that for a woman but itās not in my nature.
With a man, Iāve no interest in having an orgasm but I want my Master to have great ones however he likes. Even if he is indifferent to using me sexually, Iāll happily serve him and do everything to make his life easier and more pleasant. I did have a relationship like that with a Master in London when I was living there. He used me sexually now and again but for the most part I visited as his sissy maid and cleaned and performed domestic duties for him. I learned that I was there purely for him and I learned to empty my mind of all intentions other than to serve him. He had a set of protocols that I had to adhere to and obey. I can send these to you if you are interested, Sir.
As a sissy I am most in demand as an object for easy sex for men and thatās good that I am of use. But for the most part I find I must present myself as a woman, as convincing as I can be. Sometimes itās lady, sometimes as slut. I see a distinction between cd and sissy. The cd generally wants to be as convincing as possible, hoping to pass as a genetic woman. The sissy however embraces an over the top femininity that no genetic woman would ever embrace. Not just in what the sissy wears - lots of lace and frou-frou and ribbons and bows and little bells - but also in behaviour as the sissy lisps, minces, curtsies etc.
However even if I am trying to pass as a convincing woman, I always see myself as submitting to a real man and being there just for his pleasure.
The submission is always present. I used to know a man whose central excitement came from having a sissy as a Stepford wife - totally compliant and submissive. So if I meet a man who is looking for a cd rather than a sissy, in my mind I become a Stepford wife, there to satisfy him.
My experience as male slave is something I draw on. Iām not into pain but Iāve been beaten many times as punishment for mistakes. As sissy slave, Iād see it being used for mistakes or for displaying hints of masculinity. I also find that as sissy slave my limits seem to expand maybe cause there is a deeper sense of humiliation in being sissified or maybe because it is closer to my essential nature. Iām not effeminate but removing any trace of masculinity and feminising me totally has a powerful effect on me.
MASTER:-
Well spoken...you have piqued My interest. Ok great so, let Me tell how it is going to be in a little more detail.
I am offering complete and permanent ownership inside a pure D/s lifestyle but it is not all plain sailing and honey coated days.
The pure D/s lifestyle is unyielding, strict and can be frustrating if you are not truly 100% dedicated to it every second of every day.
If you are and ready to live this lifestyle it will bring endless bliss and happiness.
Providing service will never be the only goal nor will be giving pleasure. Of course, you must be without any expectation to receive any in return. Being a slave can be hard, harsh and you will be unfulfilled if you are not focused on the core objectives every single day.
Pure D/s is a symbiosis. Be ready to become My symbiont.
Educate yourself to what that means and what will be expected of you.
Pure D/s has many imperatives.
The D/s slave trinity for example prescribes to the slave the conditions of her existence.
It states:
No Rights,
No Choices,
No Control,
...ever.
Seven simple words but with a powerful and permanent ring to it. That will be as they say āthatā...and it will never be any different. I pursue and execute it permanently and so will My slave. There is no room for compromise or shortcuts around the trinity. you need to understand and absorb this. If you canāt see yourself living with it on a permanent basis you must raise your hand now.
Also, you need to be aware of the fact that I donāt allow deviation from the norm or little individualities. They only lead to misunderstanding and misinterpretation when it comes to the trinity.
I am the owner and Master of My slave in every respect, every breath and every second of every day.
But I am also extremely loving, caring, always having the welfare of My property in the forefront of My mind.
The intent is to train and improve her so that My life becomes easier, more comfortable, more pleasurable and happier without that any expectation may exist that those are reciprocal in any way. It is a slaveās duty and vocation to see to this with loving detail and continuity until told to stop or change.
It is always about My pleasure and My comfort and never about hers. She must learn to take pleasure from the knowledge she is providing it rather than receiving any.
As stated, there will be no vanilla life ever. There may be instances where a hybrid must be temporarily used to facilitate the world around us, but when that happens it is not to be mistaken as a compromise.
The role of a sissy slave maid can be summarised in brief and described in three parts.
The sissy - an inferior femme like being who strives to be a girl in everything she does. She will be created through training and feminisation procedures which will include HRT, implants and augmentations. Her purpose is to serve sexually in every which way, whenever, wherever and with whom ever her Owner decides. She is striving to be the best at pleasing and entertaining her owner and men in general.
The slave - is a toy for her owner and void of any rights. she is branded as owned property, marked as a slave, permanently collared, cuffed or chained at her ownerās desire. she is kept and handled as inventory and serves through work as assigned.
The maid - a domestic servant who will work tirelessly every single day to keep her ownerās residence clean and up to prescribed standard in all rooms and areas, indoors and out. She cleans, scrubs, washes, dries, polishes, irons and folds, dusts, mops, wipes, makes & changes beds daily, dishes and much more. She is also trained as an excellent cook and provides delicious multi course meals when instructed to anyone visiting or staying at the residence.
So this is it in a nutshell. There are obviously many more things but this is the lifestyle Iāve been leading for so many years.
you will never need anything and be taken care of in all respects permanently, including health care and in case something should happen to Me.
I am happy to discuss this or any other aspect in more detail if you can accept all of the above?
sissy:-
SIR, this sissy is very impressed with what You have written. It is clear that You have thought long and hard about all of this and it seems You have experienced it too as Master. The BDSM world is full of phonies so it is wonderful to come across someone who is serious about it. This sissyās experiences, as she has told You, have been split between lots of experience as male slave, lots of experience as sissy/cd but limited experience of bringing the two together so what You write is tremendously exciting.
As slave, i know it is not an easy life. I have not lived it full time but i have had a experience of it for longer than an evening or a weekend. And during those times I lived it for say two weeks i did learn that it is not some delightful fantasy. It depended on the Master of course - some were really just āplayersā who wanted role play, bondage, sex. Others were men who wanted to explore it as a lifestyle and there the sense of actually being a slave was much more real and i had to give myself over to it on His terms. i love the Trinity You insist on and i have experienced that definitely even if it has not been articulated like that. The central notion i adhere to is that i am there to serve in any and every sense of the word; that it is only by serving that my life has meaning.
So i have served in leather and rubber, in chains, naked; iāve been totally body shaved and once head shaved. i have lots of bondage equipment for Masters to use on me including a set of triple weight prison irons. i have been caged for extended periods even as sissy - iāll find some pictures of that and send. Being caged is an interesting experience as if it is done for a longish period - iāve had different periods usually up to three days- and under different circumstances such as with or without interaction or with no interaction and left in total darkness - which as slave i had to work through boredom and find a meaning in it. i always emerged from these experiences feeling much more submissive than when i started. And so for me, submission and trying to find the heart of my submission became an imperative call.
Yet it was complicated by my desire to do it as sissy. But i just could not find a Master who wanted to feminize. Yet this became more and more how i felt i should be to such an extent that i stopped my BDSM activities and focused entirely on dressing and presenting as a woman. i found it very easy to meet men and be used by them for sex but the downside was that they were almost always too polite! They would ask what they could do for me to which i replied āNothingā. i would emphasize that all i wanted was to give them pleasure on their terms and that anything they wanted i would provide.
With regard to HRT, implants and augmentations, i admit to having often thought of this but it was always seen by me as a fantasy. i did date a man a few years ago who wanted me to transition to womanhood through surgery in south east Asia but i did not have the courage to do it. And nor do i believe it is who i am. i do identify as sissy rather than as transsexual. iām both excited and afraid of the idea of implants and HRT.
iām conscious of having been a sissy all my life. My mother says she knew i was different from the moment of my birth. As a c***d at school i played with the girls and joined in with their singing and dancing games until bullying by boys started. i tried to man up to fight this but even so i was always āartisticā. i started cross dressing when i was 10 or 11 but suffered from a lot of guilt. So i repressed it for years and then the pattern of buy female clothes, feel guilt, purge began. Until I accepted myself about the age of 35. And since then, there is no guilt. Just increasing frustration at not finding a Master who wants a sissy slave maid. i feel that is what I was born to be.
As sissy, i work on expunging the slightest hint of masculinity in myself, wanting every movement, every inflection in voice, every element of behaviour to be more feminine even than that of a genetic woman without ever suggesting parody. i know i am not camp but feminine. i also have a number of chastity devices which i use to hide away my male genitals so that they are irrelevant. Although biologically male, i have always felt naturally inferior to all real men as i have always known that i am not one.
As slave, i work endlessly on becoming more and more submissive. I know that there is a perfect stillness at the heart of my submission. i am not religious but even so i would compare it to the stripping bare of a monk who peels away layer upon layer of the outer world so that he can achieve ācommunionā with his notion of God.
As maid, i can say with confidence that i am on home ground. i can perform all domestic chores without difficulty and i am reputed to be an accomplished cook. i do all my own domestic work and because being a maid is so central to me i do it always as well as i can.
Symbiont- such a great word to be applied to an inferior who searches for union with a Master on his terms.
SIR, in conclusion, i felt a great jump in moving from Your blog to what You wrote so eloquently about in Your long message to me. i am aware of a controlling intelligence in what You write and imagine You are plagued by messages from sissies so i really appreciate You writing to me. i only wonder that You are not already suited, especially as You write that You have lived this lifestyle for years.
SIR, i do not know what You look like, Your age, where You live but i sense Your genuineness coming through strongly in a world of fantasy. It may be that i fail to meet Your requirements and that You look for a sissy younger and prettier than i - thatās perfectly understandable - but i am truly grateful You have led me to reflect on who i really am. 6am now here! Long hours being unable to sleep but totally worth it. Thank You, SIR.
4 years ago
